Monday, June 29

our crew

Ella {6}, Bugg {9}, Mia {10}, Adeline {3}

Sunday, June 28

hi, hello, & forgive this girl

Echo!  Echo!  ECHO!
Gee, it's been quite some time since we last visited
in this sacred space of mine.
I think about my blog often, I never meant to disappear.
But I see from my stats that people still swing by often.  
I'm impressed with the persistency!  You'll be rewarded 'cause like, 
Here I Am!
A few silly photos:
birds ~ I'm like freaking obsessed with birds of prey.
And my heart sunglasses.
And clouds.  I'd like a whole wall gallery of clouds.
So, may I ask.....who's here reading?  Give me a shout!

Thursday, May 15

Oh, my goodness, I love them!

I had such a sweet Mother's Day!
Don't you just want to squoosh all those cheeks?

Thursday, March 27

just me

Fall 2013 ~ Battle Creek Falls hike
Right now, I'm......

~ craving some chocolate, wishing there was a baked goodie somewhere.  But alas, I ate the 5 hidden cookies yesterday.
~ tired from another pitiful night's sleep.  Mia is sick and has a horribly itchy rash.
~ loving my new bright blonde hair.  The Hunk reminded me recently that I was blonde when we met and that he really liked it.  So I obliged. 
~ hearing an almost 2 year old Adeline NOT taking her nap.  Please don't outgrow those naps yet!  But Mia & Ella were 2 1/2 when they were done.
~ wondering what's for dinner tonight?  Or even if it's important.  Cereal?  Yay!
~ thankful for my husband's new-ish job that he is enjoying.  After a bout of unemployment, it's more like amazingly grateful!!!
~ ridiculously giddy that Season 3 of "Call the Midwife" starts soon.  I've spent absurd amounts of time watching it on my laptop in bed at insane hours.  It's THAT good!
~ mad that this laptop is missing 13 keys ripped off by curious little hands.  This is taking forever to type!!
~ missing my California old school friends and their laughs.  Reunion in our future, girls?
~  thinking that if Spring keeps playing PeekABoo, then I'm going to paint a sun on my ceiling.  I'm ready for adventures on some hikes with the girls.
~ wishing for more time to read.  I couldn't get into The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin so I dropped it.  I'm on The Women in Lincoln's Life by H. Donald Winkler.  So interesting!  And I just finished Visions of Glory by John Pontius and Jane Goodall's autobiography Reason for Hope.  The latter being truly inspirational, the former being life-changing!
~ proclaiming myself a Bird Nerd.  I have oodles of pictures of different birds on my camera and have loved thumbing through the new field guide to match their identities.  Followed a flying egret trying to get closer pics yesterday.  So beautiful & fun!
~ hearing peace from Adeline's room - YES!
~ looking forward to the weekend.  Bugg has a professional photo shoot for a special needs project, hooking up with my BFF, and of course, the LDS Women's Broadcast which Mia is able to attend now.


Monday, March 10

a good dose of Bugg

You're totally welcome!

Sunday, March 9

holding on

 Gosh, look at the cobwebs in this place!!
So sorry for skipping out......yet again.
But I was in the middle of a nightmare.
It's called Twenty-Thirteen.......dun, dun, DUUUUUUUNNNN.

So so many hard things happened to us.
I won't explain.
Except to say that one of the worst things I've ever done was to vacate my precious space on the web.
I love this blog! 
Documenting my blessings and sharing them is ooey gooey goodness for my soul,
 not to mention it's family history.
Life is still rocky but we're holding on and I'm determined to dwell here more often.
{{clinking glasses}}
And I know you've missed the Bugg like mad.

I love this.
Except that my Hunk is missing.
He took this awesome picture.
Okay, so are you still here, friends?
Still reading the Bugg's blog?
GOOD!  'Cause I've much to share with you!

Sunday, May 12

I'm their mom

Today at Squaw Peak in Provo, UT
Best job ever.
I love it so much.
Happy Mother's Day!

Saturday, May 4

soul bearing

Like I said, 
it was some winter.
Longest winter ever to date.
The snow & cold were neverending.
It was only made more dreary because
life has just been plum HARD for our family 
these past handful of months.

Mia with her upchuck bowl 
at Grandma's house.
Plus, we had a boatload of sicknesses run
through the household.
Oh, me, oh, my!  Dreadful.
And it seemed like trial after trial kept coming our way.
The kind where I throw my hands heaven-ward and say,
I kept trying to push through with my fountain of optimism
but guess what?
It went & dried up.
Admittedly, the celebration in me completely shut down.
I just couldn't blog.
What was I to share anyway?
This is my happy space.  My gratitude journal.
A sacred home to my precious, joyful memories.
No clutter here, please.
I save that for my journal.
 Wintertime really was dark & long
but exponentially so because of how I handled life.
And it wasn't handled gracefully.
Raw truth.
 My life's motto is to Celebrate.
All things in any situation.
Find a way to have gratitude.
My favorite scripture is to cheerfully do all things.

 And wouldn't you know it.
This scripture:
we picked out back in September to be our family's 
theme for the school year.
But as hit after hit came,
I forgot more & more.
Darkness closed in.  It was awful.
Really, this story does have a happy ending.  Hang with me.....
At my lowest point, I had nowhere else to go but to God.
I've prayed most every day of my entire life
but I hadn't been to Him with my heart in quite some time.
I was driven to my knees, pouring out my soul, seeking guidance & comfort.
I searched my scriptures, craving answers from them.
Nothing miraculous happened. Right away.
I kept at it, though.
And one day, I was with my little baby, and I noticed that I had pure joy filling my heart.
I was just amazed by her & in awe of how awesome she is.
The ache in my heart was gone.  I could not feel the weight of my burdens!
It was amazing.  That pain was just gone.  I was flooded with gratitude for all my blessings.
For this unique, blessed life that I get to live.
To be a wife & mother!  To know that I am a beloved daughter of a Heavenly Father who loves me.
I was so grateful for the Atonement of my Savior who took those burdens from me.
It was beautiful.
I felt changed.  And all my trials were still right there.  
And I didn't know how they would be resolved.
But I had found peace amidst the storm
and knew that I could go on in spite of it.
Oh, man alive, this baby has been such a healing balm
to me this past year.
Isn't it interesting how we must learn the same lessons 
over & over again?
Turn to God, I'm filled with His love,
Forget Him and I'm lost.
So while I could feel a mighty change,
I struggled with finding that extra "oomph" for life.
The zest, the exclamation point, the celebration!
I was feeling at peace but where was my infamous
enthusiasm for this existence?
You readers are doing great, by the way, 
keep sitting tight.
It was around early February,
I took a late-night trip to Wal Mart.
That place makes me grumpy & I put off going there
for as long as I can.
But sometimes, it just has to be done.
I walked into Wal Mart & was stopped in my tracks by this cactus.
It had the most vibrant pink blossoms!
I had never noticed anything like it.
I was intrigued & completely mesmerized right there in Wallyworld.
I stared at this weird little plant and just couldn't believe that a cactus
could produce something so vivid & dynamic.
I had to buy it!  And one with yellow, too.  My favorite color.
I was walking around the store with vigor, passion, fervor!
(I love the thesaurus.)
A sensation of overwhelming gratitude was bubbling up inside of me
to the point of exhilaration.
By the time I got home, 
I could barely contain myself.
At 10:30, I threw open the front door leaving my purchases in the car,
scrambled down the basement stairs to my husband, 
and fervidly expressed my thanks to him for being mine, for our children, for our life together!
I was probably on the verge of seeming really ridiculous but 
there really was no holding me back.
Ah HA!  I was finally high on life again
and absolutely loving it.
 It was always there.
The beauty, the wonder, the blessings.
I just had to align my will with God's will
and press forward with faith.
He blessed me by putting that spark back in my vision.
I love being able to see the stunning details of my life.
It doesn't mean that my everyday life is a party.
We are still going through hard things.
But I needed this lesson.
For some reason, 
I feel like I needed to share it with you, too.
Thanks for listening.

Wednesday, May 1

You're invited.....

from pinterest

We are moving.
Not far, just around the mountain bend.
 But before we do, 
I want to host a lil' shabang at my home for all my gal friends.
We will eat chocolate and giggle and share joy.
It'll be great.
Oh, and I am going to do a "class" of sorts where I share
all my fun ideas on family celebrations/traditions/memory-makers.
Fun?  Oh, yes.
Thursday, May 9th @ 8pm
RSVP to my email.

Sunday, April 28

Sundays are good

Our church doesn't meet until later in the afternoon
so our Sunday mornings have time to be creative.
Like building forts, painting, reading,
making messes generally.
But I have always loved Sundays.

 It just feels different.
It is supposed to feel different & special.
It is the Lord's day afterall.

 I love how Sundays stimulate all the senses.
How it looks, feels, sounds, tastes, and smells.
Dressing in Sunday best, feeling inspired to be better,
listening to music for the soul, smelling roast & homemade rolls.

 I can even remember as a young child
how special Sundays felt.
My mom played such pretty music on the cassette player.
It felt safe & warm & happy.
We had just started going to the LDS church.
It was a big life change and I could feel the happiness increasing
in our family & home.

 I will be forever amazed at my mom's courage
and sensitivity to God's promptings to press forward after a divorce,
raise two little girls,
and leave a religion that she'd known her whole life
in order to do what she knew was right.
She joined The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
You've heard of the Mormons!

Provo temple
 Now that I'm a mom,
pressing through challenges & the daily grind,
my gratitude for the gospel in my life increases each day.
I am so thankful for goodly parents that raised me in this light & knowledge.

 Mia, Ella & bestie friends
at the temple grounds today

 I am honored to be a wife & mother.
I feel so overwhelmed by this calling sometimes.
Like at bedtime,
tucking in my babes after a long day,
my little heart pounds with anxiety!
"Am I doing a good job?  Is God happy with my attempts?
What if I screw this thing up?  I only get one chance at life.
It's so hard sometimes!  I make so many mistakes.  Help!"
 I'm so grateful to have the church, God, my Savior, a living prophet,
the Spirit, and scriptures as a road map to guide me
through this tricky course.
I will teach these precious children of mine
what I have come to know to be true.

You can learn more about my church and God's Plan of Happiness
Or ask me any of your questions!
b r e e f r o @ y a h o o . c o m